
Alice Godber
Three Days Before
Three days before
I spent the weekend at a festival
It was the happiest I’d felt in a long time
It was good to get out
To get out of a house filled with sadness
Relief.
There days before
It was nice to forget
To have some space
Be young
Enjoy myself
Live.
Three days before
It was a perfect weekend
I told you I was on my way home
I didn’t want to go back
I wanted to keep hold of this feeling
Happy.
Three days before
I arrived home
But this house was empty
I got into bed before you returned
I didn’t want to talk
Selfish.
Three days before
You returned
You called up to me
You wanted to talk, to see me, to ask how I was
I was awake but I kept silent
Regret.
Three days before
I heard you sigh
You were disappointed
I let you down
You wanted to talk to me
Grief.
These little regrets
They play on my mind
They fester and grow
I would do so much differently
If I knew I only had three days left with you
By Alice Godber